He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
- Psalms 147:3
I by no means have all the answers, what I do have is wisdom from my Abba spoken to me in my deepest moments of pain. As someone who is very familiar with pain and broken hearts I understand how you are feeling first hand. First off I want to remind and reassure you that God is not the one who is hurting you, the great and mighty healer is completely FOR you (Romans 8:31), He loves you with an undying, relentless, eternal, compassionate, all consuming LOVE (Song of Solomon 8:6-7). God is so concerned with YOU that He keeps record of your sorrow and holds all of your tears in a bottle. Not one tear you have ever cried has fallen below the Father's radar (Psalms 56:8). He gave all of Heaven has to offer just so you can be close with Him, do you really believe your heart is of no concern to Him? (John 3:16) Beloved, God sees how you pretend to be okay and how you work so hard to appear to be fine and He is not fooled for one minute. While others may judge you by what's outside God looks at you and sees straight to your heart (1 Samuel 16:7). Princess, God did not just see the day your heart would break but He also sees the day His very hands will put it back together. God, your King, your Abba, your best friend, the lover of your soul heals the brokenhearted and He himself will bind up your wounds (Psalms 147:3). When you feel alone, crushed, forgotten and broken God is near to you, don't believe the lie, God has NEVER left you (Psalms 34:18). The road to healing is not easy but I promise you it is so worth it. On days when you feel too weak to go on, don't give up or regress, HIS grace is sufficient for you and HIS strength is made perfect in your weakness, trust Him beloved (2 Corinthians 12:9). For some of you the idea and concept of trusting God is so hard to grasp because your trust has been broken over and over, God sees that. God knows what you've been through and He will take baby steps with you. Beloved, God meets you where you are, all you have to do is draw close to Him (James 4:8). Jesus is not like the many men in your life that have hurt you. When He said He loves you He meant it. When He said He will NEVER leave you or forsake you, He meant it. When He promised to heal your heart He meant that too! Jesus is not given to every wind of His emotions, He never changes (Hebrews 13:8). I can't promise you this road will be easy or that every moment will seem like God is present, I can assure you that God is who He says He is and that His word is truth that will never fail (Isaiah 55:11). God is longing to heal you, will you let Him in?
I am a living testimony of God's healing power. I love when people say to me, "I had no idea you've been through so much". It is such an example of what Christ healing love can do! He makes all things NEW! My prayer is that you would allow the king of glory into your heart and that you would allow Him to have His way in you, in Jesus name Amen!